Penny for them

Lately I have had a lot of time to think about things, and as always I began to think about what it will be like when I get to go home for a couple weeks this summer. I started to think about the camp that I will be going to and how much fun it will be. But then something popped into my head that my dad had said to me a little while ago. He told me that he would suggest to the leaders of the camp that I give a testimony about how my life is as a teenage missionary. And I started thinking about what in the world I would say. So I started to round up the whole mission in a way that they would actually care. Not really saying what our family is doing and what who my dad is helping, but how these moves have effected me. I thought about how when I was in America and how devoted and dependent I was towards my friends. They were my life. If I couldn't go to a friends house to play, I would burst into tears. But I was also so dependent on them that I really didn't know who Grace was. I was just like who ever I was friends with. Chameleon, was what my family called me when I wasn't listening. But when God moved us to Norway it was like he was slowly easing me out of my dependency. I learned how to make new friends, and my best friend Jasmine showed me what it is like to be independent. It was like a whole new view for me. Once I got used to that, God moved me to Estonia. At this point he is completely ridding me of my dependency. Here I have to be completely independent and at first it was so different than anything I have lived. My whole life I have just been showered with love by everyone around me. The whole church loved little Gracie, the pastors daughter. And honestly it was really scary. But now I am learning to prioritize and I am starting to see the real skin under the chameleon. I am learning who I really am. And learning to fully depend on God instead of the people around me. And I am only starting to see what God is doing in me through this mission. And this is only the beginning.