Never say never

There's some things we don't talk about Rather do without And just hold the smile Falling in and out of love Ashamed and proud of Together all the while

You can never say never Why we dont know when Time and time again Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go Don't let me go Don't let me go [x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything As far as the eye can see Under your command I will be your guardian When all is crumbling Steady your hand

You can never say never Why we dont know when Time, time and time again Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go Don't let me go Don't let me go [x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go Don't let me go Don't let me go [x4]

Beautiful Ice Skating...

So today me and my family decided to go ice skating. We arrive at the rank and not to our surprise, its beautiful. Trees with lights wrapped all around them and couples holding hands all lovey dovey. I'm skating around with a friend of mine, that we oddly saw there, and I turn without looking. This very tall guy, at the age of about 21, in a brown jacket with a fur collar is coming right at me. He grabs me so that we both don't fall and we go spinning. I'm clutching onto his clothes with all my strength trying not to fall. After about seven seconds the moment was over. Beautiful right? Try again. My friends mom reexplains the whole dance and apparently I was screaming and he threw me off as soon as we were both secure and not falling down, and went back to holding hands with his date. Not quite the romance every girl dreams about... but hey, its the only story I've got to tell so there you go :)

I miss you...

The other day I was looking at a scrapbook that all my friends made for me when I left America (very bad for me) and I couldn't help but notice how dang happy I was.
I mean it wasn't just a happiness cause its my birthday happy... I was just a generally happy person. All the time. And I'm thinking back and I notice that I've always kinda been that way. I think that is why I had so many friends back then. Cause I was so simple. A little bundle of joy. Haha. And lately I have been trying to figure out why I don't have much of a social life anymore, which I know for a fact is why I get all this stress, and why I'm mopey sometimes, and it explains my extreme mood swings too. Well I think that I really can't have one with out the other. My social life was kinda because of who I was. I was fun to be around cause I loved to smile and laugh. Of course I still do, I'm not that bad but I'm not the same. And my joy came from my friends, that I loved with all my heart and I had known since I was born. So I'm thinking that I need to get my joy back, Or find some better friends that make me happier. Haha. That was a joke... but I really need to do something about this because I really can't let this become who I am. I want it to only be a small little tiny time of my life that I was still adjusting to my second move. I was kinda relying on that too, that I would get over it once I found some friends that live here, but half a year has gone by, and I am only getting worse... something needs to be done.

New Moon :D

I honestly dont understand. Somehow we got onto the conversation of the new movie New Moon in my PSHE class and I learned that everyone hated it! I absolutely loved it. Although that could be because the first one was just so bad, I had to compare it to that one and it really lowered my expectations. They all thought it was the stupidest thing, and when they explained it so badly then I saw their side, like for example my friend Michal was saying how at the end he was joking with his friend and when he asked her to marry him they were all "haha what if it ended here" and it did... and I guess if you saw it stupidly like that then it wouldnt be so good, but I thought it was really good!! I mean it was just like how I imagined it in my head. I'm not sure if that means I have an extremely bad imagination or what... but I still loved it :)

USA Today

Today I went to this thrift store with my mom and my sister. We love going to those. But this particular thrift store had all their clothes from america. It was so great to see all the american styles and brand names again! And there was some really awesome brand names too! I bought a really nice American Eagle skirt that would originally be like $20 or $25, well I bought it for $8. Shelby also bought Abercrombie and Fitch jeans for $20. It was really fun :) But I also bought this extremely nice emerald dress. One you would wear to a really nice dinner where your boyfriend would propose to you. Honestly, I have no idea where the heck I will wear it... on account of I have no boyfriend that will propose to me anytime soon. But Christmas is coming up soon and we are going to a concert so maybe I will wear it there... my dad said it would be appropriate for that... but I think its a bit too fancy. But it is still so nice to have it!

Christmas Decorating :)

So yesterday we decorated for Christmas!! Yay! The house looks so christmasy and beautiful! Right now I am home sick, and I am just looking around at all our decorations... like the stockings hanging off the windowsill (our fireplace is a big silver thing with no place to hang them from :( ) and the advent calender that we made this year... made of red bags with white snow flakes that me and my mom cut out glued onto it, hanging in the window above the stockings. And our little manger that my mom made in a ceramic making things place, for my grandma, and when she died, she gave it to my mom. The red stars hanging in the window, and the garland wrapping around the stair railing. I just love it. I love Christmas. Every year it is my job to set out the little town that also used to be my grandmas, its not very complete, there is only five buildings, and a bunch of people doing random christmas things, but i love doing it, cause its my job, and its fun. Now you must know, my family takes christmas decorating very seriously. We always put on christmas music, make glug or eggnog, and chocolate and we all wear our santa hats... its lots of fun. But back to my little city. I am so sad because all the houses come with a little light to put inside of it... but they all have american plugs... :( so my houses dont light up :( but that is okay, i still love it.

What do you do?

What do you do when life gives you lemons? Easy, you make lemonade. Well let me tell you, like most things in life, that is a heck of a lot easier to say than to do. What do you do when your family moves you across the world? Away from the place you have called home your whole life. Away from your best friend that you have known since the day you were born, and love him like he is your own brother? Splitting your family in half and leaving your older brother and sister behind? What do you do? You cry. A lot. But then you get half way across the world, and honestly, its not half bad. Okay so I knew that it couldn't be absolutely terrible, since we are doing this for God. And what if you meet this incredible girl from Florida. My new best friend. What if you hate to go a day without talking to her and gushing like a little girl about all our inside jokes, and the cute guy next door? But what if, two years later, you have to do it all over again? What if your only a 15 year old girl with enough stress just being a teenager, without my body trying to release it in other ways like grinding my teeth at night or loosing all my hair? What do you do then? Take it from me. Its not easy.